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LadyRonin
Mandy Nadeau
Canada
Current Residence: Peterborough, Ontario Canada
Favourite genre of music: No preference really.
Operating System: Windows XP
MP3 player of choice: My little green Sony Walkman
Shell of choice: Huh? *scratches head*
Favourite cartoon character: Pussyfoot and of course, The Tick!!
Personal Quote: "Even in the desolate wilderness, stars can still shine." -Aoi Jiyuu Shiroi Nozomi
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I am trying to update on all of the blogging/social networking sites I use, so you might read this elsewhere.

I hardly know where to begin, I've been quiet for so long.

My mental health has taken a turn, I've always struggled but I've been going downhill for a while now and it's affecting everything I do. Sitting at the computer trying to type out a sentence has become a challenge. I hardly talk to anyone, I rarely update any of the "social networking" sites I belong to, thus becoming more of a recluse than I have ever been.  I've gained weight, lost confidence, and am losing hope as I spiral downward feeling no control over where I go.

I do have help in the form of doctors and therapists. I have been changing medications since March of this year (the old ones didn't do much anymore), which I know has a lot to do with where I am emotionally. I knew it wouldn't be easy and I am frustrated with myself, with this illness, with my life. The new medications I've tried have not helped, and I am not making much progress in therapy either. I feel like it's my fault somehow.

For ten years I have battled this, sometimes winning, sometimes finding myself at the end of my rope. Honestly I don't think I've ever felt so lost. All of the jewellery I used to make seems like a distant memory, I have no motivation or inspiration to create anymore. I am terrified of social situations and sit here in my home, day after day. Even in the company of Matt and our 5 cats, I still feel very alone.

Anyway, my apologies for the tone of this update.  I felt it necessary to be honest about where I have been and why I seemingly dropped off the face of the earth. I'm not being "emo" or looking for sympathy or pity; I am being open about how this mental illness (and Depression IS a mental illness) is affecting me.

Thank you for reading.
With love,
Mandy

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JKL-Designs Featured By Owner May 29, 2014  Student Artisan Crafter
A piece of your art work was featured here : fav.me/d7k8h95 :) :heart: :rose:
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Moatis Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Just thought I'd say Hi.

Hope you are doing well, still making jewelry, and still being an all around lovely person.
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hwkwlf Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2008  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
:glomp:

You looked like you needed a random hug!

Love ya, babe!
Tadd
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ladyblackmaille Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2008
Hello Lady R. I have finally arrived. I love it here. So different than the "other" forums.
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UniquelyYours Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2008
Hello! It's been a while... I am back now :)

I am doing an alphabetical run-down of people I am watching and today we are on "L's". Thought I would let you know you are in my "Love" journal :heart:
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ringnebula Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2007
Tag you're it!! Here are the rules:

1. Post these rules
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal of these facts
4. At the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them that they're tagged
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vyader Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2007
you're really good at chainmail! i've always wished i could do such beautiful things... :)
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LadyRonin Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2007
Thank you. :)
You never know what you can create, chainmaille is fun to learn and very rewarding.
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vyader Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2007
:hug:
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Joakaha Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2007  Hobbyist General Artist
Nice gallery. :)
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