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My "Universal" Blog Post

Fri Oct 17, 2008, 11:13 AM
I am trying to update on all of the blogging/social networking sites I use, so you might read this elsewhere.

I hardly know where to begin, I've been quiet for so long.

My mental health has taken a turn, I've always struggled but I've been going downhill for a while now and it's affecting everything I do. Sitting at the computer trying to type out a sentence has become a challenge. I hardly talk to anyone, I rarely update any of the "social networking" sites I belong to, thus becoming more of a recluse than I have ever been. I've gained weight, lost confidence, and am losing hope as I spiral downward feeling no control over where I go.

I do have help in the form of doctors and therapists. I have been changing medications since March of this year (the old ones didn't do much anymore), which I know has a lot to do with where I am emotionally. I knew it wouldn't be easy and I am frustrated with myself, with this illness, with my life. The new medications I've tried have not helped, and I am not making much progress in therapy either. I feel like it's my fault somehow.

For ten years I have battled this, sometimes winning, sometimes finding myself at the end of my rope. Honestly I don't think I've ever felt so lost. All of the jewellery I used to make seems like a distant memory, I have no motivation or inspiration to create anymore. I am terrified of social situations and sit here in my home, day after day. Even in the company of Matt and our 5 cats, I still feel very alone.

Anyway, my apologies for the tone of this update. I felt it necessary to be honest about where I have been and why I seemingly dropped off the face of the earth. I'm not being "emo" or looking for sympathy or pity; I am being open about how this mental illness (and Depression IS a mental illness) is affecting me.

Thank you for reading.
With love,
Mandy

  • Mood: Depressed

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Peterborough, Ontario Canada
  • Interests: Chainmaille art/jewellery, painting, dance, costuming, music, pro wrestling, my kitties
  • Favourite movie: Shawshank Redemption, The Notebook
  • Favourite band or musician: Sarah McLachlan, Chantal Kreviazuk, U2, Rush, many, many more...
  • Favourite genre of music: Almost any genre
  • Favourite artist: Enchantress13, Armoured Raven, My Fiance Matt
  • Operating System: Windows XP
  • MP3 player of choice: My little green Sony Walkman
  • Shell of choice: Huh? *scratches head*
  • Favourite cartoon character: Pussyfoot and of course, The Tick!!
  • Personal Quote: "Even in the desolate wilderness, stars can still shine. -Aoi Jiyuu Shiroi Nozomi"
  • Tools of the Trade: Pliers and rings, my hands, my brain (when operative), my eyes.
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:iconhwkwlf:
:glomp:

You looked like you needed a random hug!

Love ya, babe!
Tadd

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:iconladyblackmaille:
Hello Lady R. I have finally arrived. I love it here. So different than the "other" forums.
:iconuniquelyyours:
Hello! It's been a while... I am back now :)

I am doing an alphabetical run-down of people I am watching and today we are on "L's". Thought I would let you know you are in my "Love" journal :heart:

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Tag you're it!! Here are the rules:

1. Post these rules
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal of these facts
4. At the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them that they're tagged

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Canadian girl who loves making jewelry!!
:iconvyader:
you're really good at chainmail! i've always wished i could do such beautiful things... :)

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Nothing personal, you're just an awful human being.
:iconladyronin:
Thank you. :)
You never know what you can create, chainmaille is fun to learn and very rewarding.

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"Gravity is a harsh Mistress."
- The Tick

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:iconvyader:
:hug:

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Nothing personal, you're just an awful human being.
:iconladyronin:
Thank you very much. :heart:

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"Gravity is a harsh Mistress."
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:iconthe-spirit-mage:
Wow. I wish I could comment on all of your pieces, but I :heart: your techniques with the chainmail.

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